i dont know if i should just give up.. i mean like so much time and effort... maybe people change.... maybe they dont even mean what they say in the first place... but i dont get this avoidance thing... what did i do? why am i always a victim of this avoidance thing... i really want to know cause things dont just change overnight.. people have their reasons... even that doesnt justify avoiding people... time and time again it happens and i just dont bother about it.. i didnt really see it coming either... but this time its different... i cant stand to wait any longer.. i may still wait even after saying this but it hurts now more than ever... more than it has ever been before... i just want to know why... i think i would move on a lot better if i knew.. cause im really clueless.. what did i ever do to deserve this... i hate this one sided thing... i wish for once i could find someone who loves me just as much as i love them.. or at least someone who'll just be honest and be open about it and not just stop talking one day... i smile on the outside but deep down im hurting really badly.. thats always been the case.. like my bro said once maybe being an asshole helps... cause the assholes seem to find love... no point being selfless, or caring or forgiving and what not.. all a load of crap... i dont believe in love.. its just there to bloody ruin someone.. to break them.. its freakin sadistic