ok so today was commskills wasnt so bad.. went up and talked crap as usual.. guess its at least a B... anyway passed up my APEL portfolio.. then had lunch with zoe and lina.. then slept in the bus all the way to kallang for training.. and fortunately there wasnt training today... so i could slack.. unfortunately i had to stay there till evening so i could go home in a cab with my dad.. that means whole afternoon wasted when i could have slept earlier or do my project... so now im done packing for tomorrow.. think ive got anything.. dont know if anything slipping my mind... still got IHT.. fucking kevin is not home and hasnt send me the edited thing.. cant do the project till that is passed to me.. as though i dont need to sleep.. already freakin tired as it is.. guess i'll sleep on the way to KL... anyway i dont feel like this is the best time for this trip.. really busy.. projects due.. need to catch up when i come back.. already cramped a lot of stuff this week... just IHT left.. bringing my work there to do.. and my little black book which has been my recent entertainment... been doodling.. not bad really... it shall be my diary for the next week... im so going to miss whatever happens next week.. i dont wanna go... if only i could just stay here... so much unfinished business at the moment.. so many things i want to do but havent got the time lately... i hope i feel better in a weeks time.. maybe im just lacking sleep.. i really need to catch up.. im blabbering again.. sometimes i wonder.. what am i living for.. good grades?? other stuff??? i really dont know... dont think the world would be different without me... like other than my family.. who would actually care what happens to me ... no im not feeling suicidal.. haha.. was just wondering..