its been a week.. really nothing to say... things were cool on saturday during basketball.. couldnt wait for dinner.. but dinner didnt come.. had like 17 miss calls and for a moment i was rather annoyed like why my mum called so many times.. lucky i didnt really sound too angry on the phone.. my dad was in the hospital and he wasnt breathing.. passed away at 6.10 officially... i guess it could be blamed on many things or people like the sucky peremedics, but i guess its for the better cause if they did revive him he would be a vegetable and he wouldnt like that too much.. had the funeral arrangements on saturday after the autopsy... he passed away from heart attack... the wake started on saturday.. i think close to a 1000 people came in total.. had the funeral mass on wednesday and prayers the following days till today... i guess it just weird adjusting back to life... with the additional house work and stuff.. cleaned the bird cage for the first time recently... didnt know it smelt that bad.. my morning routine now starts from 9.. no more 12 for me.. maybe on somedays... went to SCC to watch my bro play.. his first game of the season..they won easily.. finished early, had lunch and played pool... yup.. guess this has really made me closer to my mum.. i just get worried sometimes what will happen when she gets old and retires. it must surely be really lonely... and like what will happen to my house and all the stuff... who knows... i just wish i spent more time with my dad the following weeks, and that i was there when it happened. i wish that he did have some last words or something to tell us what to do.. and i wish i did tell my dad i loved him.. im sure he knew i did but i just never said it before.. well never really understood how fragile life is until now.. i mean like nobody expected him to go.. the youngest of the family.. only 50.. but shit happens... he's probably better off now

anyways thanks everyone for coming.. appreciate it

exercise will officially start tomorrow.. been eating a lot the past week cause everyones been buying so much food for the family.. you couldnt imagine how much food there was.. haha